I orginally wrote this within 24 hours after Ryan’s birth into the world (3/31/10). I did it so soon so I wouldn’t forget a detail and so I could share his birth story with all of our family and friend who were so far away at the time. Reading this now, I see that I made many errors, but hopefully I have corrected most of them!
Day 1 of Being a Mom of Two
As many of you know, my water broke prematurely at exactly 33 weeks – on Saturday, March 27th. It was a gross rupture and no real chance of the rupture healing. The doctors were hoping to that I could make it until next saturday to give Ryan the best chance of survival and with the littlest medical inventions neccessary. Early in the morning of Tuesday, March 30, I started having some real contractions. They started around 11 pm the night before, but would come and go throughout the early morning hours. By 6 am, I called the doctor’s back in and told them the contractions were getting stronger and not subsiding. They brought me back down to labor and delivery, where I begged for pain meds (I will have a few choice words for Eve when I get to meet her – lol, it also reminded me how much God must have been displeased with her to make the pain of labor so intense and awful). The pain meds were slowing down the contractions. So, then they would not give me anything but tylenol to help me deal with the pain – the contractions were anywhere from 7 minutes apart to 2 minutes apart – so they were not being very consistant. My doctor said I would either have to go through the contractions until they were sure I was laboring without any pains meds or have a repeat c-section. Knowing that I couldn’t make it in the pain I was in for a few more hours, we opted for the c-section. Shortly after the decision, I was being rolled back to the OR for the c-section. It was must harder for me the second time around maybe because I knew more what to expect as far as the procedure. When they found Ryan and removed him, we could only hear a few cries before he was whisked away through a window into the NICU unit. Jeff didn’t get to really see him either. After Ryan was gone, I struggled with making it through the end of the c-section. I was extremely nervious, shaking, and cold. They finally gave me something that knocked me out and I awoke in the labor and delivery room. For the first few hours they wouldn’t let either one see Ryan, but finally Jeff got to go. When I tried to get out of bed the first time, I was feeling not well. So, I haven’t been able to see him yet, but I’m feeling better and can’t wait to hold and see my little boy for the first time. Kaylen hasn’t been brought to the hospital yet. She will not be able to meet Ryan until he leaves the NICU. I opted for her not to visit me either since I was feeling so ill and in much pain. Luckily, we have daycare watching her during the day, Jeff picked her up and spent the evening with her before taking her over to a dear co-workers house to sleep for the night. I can’t wait until she can meet her little brother! Anyways, the first day of being a mom of two hasn’t felt like being a mom yet. Just trying to pull myself together to be there for my children now! Ryan did struggle with his breathing and was placed on a CPAP to help him breath. There was also some concern of jaudice (as with Kaylen) and he is currently under the bili lights. He is inside a isolet right now, but they are hopeful that later on today, he will be removed from the CPAP, taken into a regular crib (as he can maintain his own temps now), taking off IV feedings and to be feed by tube. We are so very thankful for all tlhe prayers and encouragement. Both Ryan and I made it through this in loving hands of our God and Savior through the help and incessions of your prayers. We look forward to keep on singing God’s praises as he continues to work mircales for us!