Priceless Moments 03/31

Today we had a RAWRing party for Ryan. As a part of his birthday party, we brought some inflatable dinosaurs for decor for his party. Jeff had blown them up the night before. When Jeff came down the stairs in the morning, there was Kaylen surrounding by all six dinos and started telling her daddy.. THIS IS THE BEST BIRTHDAY PARTY EVER! Never mind it wasn’t her party and that they party hadn’t even started. She did have a great a great time at party though!

A couple of days before I had painted Kaylen’s nail with polish that you can just rub off. In the morning, she said her nail was broken. Jeff told her that I would fix it after dinner. Her response was so funny. She said that she LOVES dinner and then ask if we could have dinner now… never mind we hadn’t had breakfast yet.

She has also requested a tuba.. make that pink tuba. We watch a lot of Veggie tales in the house so she wants a tuba like Larry. 🙂


A Preemie Mom’s Oath

I have sat in the NICU and waited.
I have cried and prayed.
I have endured.

Like most things in life, the people who truly have appreciation are those who have struggled to attain their dreams.
I will notice everything about my child.
I will take time to watch my child sleep, explore and discover.
I will marvel at my surviving miracle every day for the rest of my life.

I will be happy when I wake in the middle of the night to the sound of my child, knowing that I can comfort, hold and feed him and that I am not waking to an alarm going off, another round of meds or because I am crying tears for fear of the unknown.
I will be happy because my baby is alive and crying out for me.

I count myself lucky in this sense; that God has given me this insight, this special vision with which I will look upon my child that my friends will not see.

Whether I parent a preemie with physical challleges or medical issues, I will not be careless with my love.

I will be a better mother for all that I have endured. I am a better wife, a better aunt, a better daughter, neighbor, friend and sister because I have known pain.

I know disillusionment as I have been betrayed by my own body.
I have been tried by fire and hell that many never face, yet given time, I stood tall.

I have prevailed.
I have succeeded.
I have won.

So now, when others hurt around me, I do not run from their pain in order to save myself discomfort. I see it, mourn it, and join them in theirs.

I listen.

And even though I cannot make it better, I can make it less lonely. I have learned the immense power of another hand holding tight to mine, of other eyes that moisten as they learn to accept the harsh truth and when life is beyond hard. I have learned a compassion that only comes with walking in those shoes.

I have learned to appreciate life.

Yes, I will be a wonderful mother.

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My two preemies